HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!


It's a new year with many challenges ahead. Let us face them together and have a wonderful year.

:)

All adults are crazy.

First, my mum spontaneously suggested we go back to Johor, without giving me extra 24 hours to think about it, and then when we arrived, my mum and her siblings suggested we go to Penang for a visit!! All this within another 6 hours!!! What the heck are they thinking??

So, the current me in Johor is about to sit another 4 hours drive back home, and then another 4 hours drive to Penang... Hhaahahahahaha.....

I don't know what are they thinking... Adults never cease to surprise me.

You know what I wanted to get as a present for my 'amazing...-.-' achievement in PMR? Books.

I don't know why, but whenever I set my eyes on those lovely books sitting quietly on the shelves on MPH, I just cannot resist the urge to hold it and pat it. ahahahaha I wanted a new bicycle but... If you have to choose a book or a bicycle, of course you would choose a book right?

Anyway, I hope that my impressive persuasion skill could be put to good use and coax my parents to get both of them :)

Wish me good luck:)

I might be back from Penang on Tuesday....


*You can never get good english books in Johor. Let's just say that the majority of the inhabitants in Johor are Chinese speaking people, so English books isn't in their best interest.


Okay.

bye bye

Hello.

I think I am the first blogger to post about my PMR results.

I got straight As. (all 8 of them) I was surprised my chinese made it. I wasn't very confident in paper 1 and I thought that would drag me down.

I am relieved. I am not trying to sound arrogant, but I don't feel all that happy. I am calm and composed to the extent it might lead me to people's misunderstanding.

Do you know why I am relieved? Let me tell you why.

Today morning, mum woke me up at 9.30 because I am supposed to collect my paper at 10. She was way anxious than I am. She was rushing me here and there, then I stopped and asked her:"why are you so anxious? Its not like you're the one whose collecting the results." "Why are you so calm?" Then, her lips twitched into a malevolent smile,"Oh I see, you are very calm because you knew you are going to get bad results eh?" "Yeah..." I replied.

No. I am not agreeing to her claims of me getting horrible results. No. It's no use trying to hammer some sense into her bird brain mind. What is she trying to do? Lower my self estemm? I have never seen a mother like her in my life. . . Does she realized she is causing some negative impact on me which could effect my life, psychologically? My confidence has been gradually undermined by her words.

When I reached school, got my paper, the number of As written there was stunning. I never thought I could get a straight. Actually, it doesn't matter how many As I get, I just need them to get into science stream, that's all. The piece of sheet can't judge my value as a human in this world. I'll only worry when SPM comes.

You should have seen the look on my mum. Totally different from the one back at home. She was hysterical, blissful, excited. . . Just like a toddler who is given a lollipop... Bah.. What's wrong with her? I thought. Many months back she was convinced I couldn't get all As, and she kept on attacking me, which was actually one of her tactics to make me in full of spirit, to fight hard for the As she wants, I assumed. And now she was showing a glistening face which practically screams You are my girl!!! Pathetic. I don't know why am I so angry at her, but here I am, hiding in my room fuming at her stupid reaction.

After we went back home, she sat down in front of the coffee table, and started to analyse my paper. Maybe she was trying to prove that she hadn't seen those As wrongly. Then she asked me, what is the 4 cemerlang there for? Why some don't have one?

Bamm.. Her words struck me like a hammer.

I didn't know what is the purpose of the cemerlangs there, so I just tell her maybe its because the cemerlangs are for those which I got 90 and above.
*actually, I was wrong. Siewjun told me that cemerlangs are the markings for PEKA.

I can still hear her voice ringing in my head... "why some don't have one?"

What does that suppose to mean? So, you are not satisfied with me granting your eternal wish of seeing me getting full As, and now you expect every single subject to have the word Cemerlang handsomely printed beside it?! If it weren't for Siewjun's explanation, I would have thought I'd disappointed you all again... I can't forget about what happened last time, the time when I didn't get 7 As in upsr... Please, I have already done my best to achieve this feat, so would you show some satisfaction?

Today, at this hour, Lord of the Rings: the return of the king is showing on 8TV. I wanted to watch it, but after listening to my parents' discussion, I quietly retreated to my bedroom.

I heard my mum telling my dad a lot of my friends got straight As too. He replied:"So easy for people get to straights As ar?" Then my mum told him:"Aiya, the government lower the standards mah. To help those kampung students... You never heard your brother (my uncle, dad's brother)say meh? Add maths now so easy everyone can get As la!" And then the conversation shifted to talking about those who didn't get straight As. My mum was being sympathetic, "they worked so hard but STILL cannot get all As... Very sad..."

I cannot believe my dad actually said that. So what's wrong with being 'easy' to get straight As? He sounded like he was accusing me of getting them without putting much effort. For your information, I did study, I study and study and study and I believe I deserve them, and now you say its easy getting them?! Don't underestimate our abilities, for we have worked diligently for this day to come. -he has changed...

And to my mum, if I didn't get straight As, I do not need your pity. I can stand on my own, and don't you dare pity me. I do not need pity form you who always refuse to acknowledge me. I know I have latent potential within me, but YOU discourage me, as always, and when I believe I can achieve something, your unnecessary words were always there to hammer my self confidence.

I don't understand them. Actually, I think I expected too much from them. They may be my parents, but they are still merely humans who commit the 7 sins. I should be grateful that they are there to support me financially until I am ready to spread my wings.

To them, I am just a foal who hasn't seen the real world. I am ignorant, immature, and rebellious. Yeah. I admit I am.

The last thing I would ever want to do is to voice my opinions at home. They will never listen, because I am immature and ignorant. When I do, I tend to explode in front of them, and then they'll scold me, lecture me...

I am confused. I don't know what I am. Or maybe I knew it all long, within the subconscious mind in me.


* don't give up. PMR is just a small stepping stone. You'll have to pick yourself up and face the new challenges ahead.


Sorry for being pessimistic.

bye bye.

Hello to the world :)

After cooping myself up in my home sweet bedroom, I finally broke this mundane routine and stepped out into the sun!! Haha, ok, I am exaggerating... I went out with my friends to watch 2 movies.

I watched Avatar and Froggie.

Avatar has got to be one of the most amazing movies I have ever watched in my entire life!!!

Finally, a movie portrayed in an imaginary world which is so real I practically immersed myself into that world. I haven't watched any movie which has the alluring power to capture my heart as LOTR once did.

Heh, I know its weird, and embarrassing, and somewhat foolish, but I'll just say it out anyways.

I think I cried about 3 times during the movie.

The one thing that a splendid work of art has that could capture my heart is the theme it tried to convey to us. Humanity, conscience, good and evil... You name it. Those themes are the key to connect my heart with the soul of the movie. I guess I cried because the movie somehow relates to your daily life as a human, even though our ordinary life lacks the drama and action as seen in movies.

Yes, ridiculous as it may seem to you, I believe every masterpiece has a soul, whether it be composition, literature, movie, game... Those which successfully touched my heart are the ones which possess souls. The souls are there to tell the tale, and it wouldn't fade regardless of time. They will remain there for eternity.

As for Froggie... Well, there were some parts that made me feel sad. Each disney classics has a sad part which makes you want to cry. I am not disappointed in Froggie. But I am not all satisfied either. I still think Beauty and the beast is the best disney classics.


Damn. I want to watch LOTR on a whim. Maybe I should get a part time job during the next holidays, and earn some money to buy myself a complete set of LOTR dvd, and Advent Children Complete Blu ray disc. Total price would be : 400?! gosh...

Can't sleep.

Do you guys think the name shirley suits me? I know its common, but I somehow think that this name was made perfectly for me: normal, common, never to be acknowledged, just a bystander in life, a weed on the pavement... Yeah... I think it does fit me well. Anyway, give me your suggestions :)

bye bye, and good morning.


*PMR results will be released at 10 am today. Woohoo~~ I can't wait for my mum to skin me alive!!! :0

A different perspective

I realized human's behavior is such an interesting thing in life. I think if I were an old woman without a thing to do in this world, I would probably spend my evenings in a park sitting on a comfortable bench and enjoy people watching. Sounds nice for an old woman's life, no?

Everyone is unique. And that can be observed just by watching their actions. I am an introvert, so I don't do much talking in a crowd. I am more of the listener instead of the speaker. I listen, and I have the habit of watching people. Sometimes their actions just want to make you laugh, especially when observing small kids.

~

One thing that amazes me is the reaction and attitude of Fans of a popular singer/band etc. It's amazing how they diligently collect information regarding their idol, and I just don't understand how they do it, especially when their idol comes from a foreign country, speaking a foreign language they don't understand.

Do they hire some detective? Have informants? Where do they get all this network of information?

Ok, you know that I enjoy Gackt's music, so I went to do a little hunting, just to kill boredom.

I found out he was planning a secret meeting with his fans (not just any fans, but fans who joined his membership thingy) in Singapore few months ago. And so, I began my search from there. Then, I stumbled upon a forum, where the news about Gackt coming to Singapore break out.

I have lots of question to ask them. Like how do they know all this? Maybe they got connections with fans from Japan. But if so, why would the japanese fans want to share all this information with them? I mean, if there's only one chocolate on the table I wouldnt want to share it with you. Hmm... Interesting... They aren't stingy to share their fav idol...

Ohh ohh, about the forum, the users are actually planning a meet up in an airport. But how do they know when he will be arriving?? Don't tell me they are going to go everyday to check...

Since they will be meeting in the airport, one of the users stated that they should bring Gackt's album, magazine, yadayadayada to identify themselves. And, he/she requested someone bring a laptop to identify their usernames and to check out new info in this *stalking mission.

Some students want to skip school just to meet him.. Tsk tsk.. Naughty naughty....

The users are happily adding comments on what they would bring to identify themselves as Gackt's loyal fan. Ohh, I want to bring this album. Hey, I will be bringing this poster(the pink one) ... HAHAHA

One user that amused me is a girl, I don't know what kind of work she does, but she got access to information on which ballrooms/halls will be available for events. And she might be able to find out which hotel he stays at... And so, they are all narrowing down the list of places he might be performing at...

And then all of a sudden...

CHANGE OF PLANS!!! HE IS SPOTTED AT ~~~~~
Wearing a white shirt~~~~


HAHAHAHA


Omg, I love their reaction. Everyone was going OMG OMG OMG!!! Where Where???? HAHAHA

And then, they could do nothing else... They lament on the fact that they aren't fated to see their idol. They grieve over their ignorance, lateness........ yadayadayada


gOt to love this kind of people. Honestly, I admire their diligence and persistence in the attempts of meeting him. These guys really know how to stalk someone. Cool. These kind of people actually exist. I am bemused. They would go that far to just take a glimpse of their idol. Fascinating....

That's why, i enjoy behind-the-scenes activities. It's filled with Randomness!!!!


I hope you famous singers/bands/yadayadayada out there realize how much trouble your fans have been through (although I am not sure of the details myself..) just to meet you in person. They have to ask themselves these questions: what, when, where, how, who and plan and plan and plan just to shake your hand, and melt at your sight. Wouldn't it be horrible if all their efforts turned out to be a wild goose chase?

~

I found out I can't write very well, I have trouble expressing my thoughts... I wonder if it's because of the holidays...

Why must so many people fuss about 24th???? I know it is the most important day of our lives, the day when our PMR results will finally be released. Even my cousin who rarely chats with me on MSN decided to pop me a message asking "when will your PMR results come out ar?"

hahaha

I am not angry, in fact, I am amused. I don't know why, but I enjoy looking at the anxiety written all over their faces.

You guys are so funny...

must I really wear my school uniform??

Its not that I am reluctant to wear it, I just don't want holidays to end so fast.


Ok. bye bye


*remember to give suggestions about the HEAL THE WORLD charity club. read Sooyin and Heizel's blog for more information. thanks you.

Hello to the world, again !!!!


Zhouling said my blog is dead again. (actually i can't understand why is it dead because I just posted something yesterday) Anyway, since I have some free time on my hands, I shall post something new.


Yesterday night was the first time I experienced Gold Class in GSC.

Cool, and yet, not so cool. Well, I don't find the seats comfortable, the cushion reminds me of an old man's sofa. But few things I like about Gold class are the sound system and the solitude. It's spacious, and you have a lot of room for yourself. I like solitude. Especially after the incident that occur.

Let me tell you what happened. You see, I sat at a different place apart from my parents. So, I get to enjoy the solitude for myself. Then, my dad told me you can adjust the seat, and they even have a foot rest. My mum wanted the foot rest, after she pressed the button, that foot rest ejected so fast it sent my mum's shoes flying. It landed right in front of someone. Hahaha, what an embarrassment. . .

I watched storm warriors 2.


Simple plot, good music though, i dont like their style..

Their style is adapted from comics. For me, watching the movie, especially the battle scenes, is just like reading a comic.

Conclusion, it looks fake.

The motion and all is great, artistic, but it looks fake.

If you compare it with LOTR, LOTR is like a fantasy in reality. It looks real. but this movie isnt.




I have the urge to get a puppy. Maybe its because I am feeling down and lonely these days.


See that husky?

ITS BEAUTIFUL. ELEGANT. STRONG.

IT HAS CHARISMA.

I LOVE IT.

She/he would make such a good companion.



Thats all. What a crappy post.

bye bye

Attention Please!

Hello to the world once again.

I have a news for all BUD4 students. Well, just recently, Heizel came up with this plan of forming a new club. Yes, A BRAND NEW ORGANIZATION.

This club will be a charity organization. As you can see, this is just a newly sketched idea, so we haven't yet have the details...

Although we haven't told the teachers about this, but I am sure it will just be a matter of time before we get the approval from the school.

Our aim is to Heal the World :) There are so many unfortunate ones out there who is in need of our help. Won't it be great to give them a lift? May it be money, love or care, we are fortunate for not experiencing the hardships they have been through, and therefore we must play our part to assist them.

Through this club, we will fight together to raise funds for the unfortunates. Through this club, we will enact the roles of guardians and shower them with love and care. We will make our society a better place, and show them even if their world is filled with despair, we will be there to show them another path to light. And trust me, it will be loads of fun!

Constructive suggestions and ideas is highly appreciated to make an evolution, so do not hesitate to drop your comments in the chatbox.

Thank you for your help.


Bye bye.